knuckle down...

That's just my cowgirl alter ego riding on her bar room bull
dripping with the sweat of irony as the cowboys whoop and drool
shooting glances at the mirror to see if her scar is showing
she is truly going nowhere tonight

lecherous old lady wanna-be
much too young and shy
flailing her whole life
just thinking she can teach herself to fly
vehement romantic frantic
for forever right now
but forever's going nowhere tonight

sick of goading her self loathing
she thinks, i think i'd better leave
'course whiskey makes me smarter and i'm happy as can be
but please excuse me darlin
its not you
its me

and there's a dusty old dust storm on mars, they say
so tonight you cant see it too clear
still i stood in line to look through their telescope
looked like a distant ship light
as seen from a foggy pier
and i know that i was warned
still it was not what i hoped

i think i'm done gunnin to get closer
to some imagined bliss
i'm gonna knuckle down
just be ok with this

i swear some stuff you just see better from further away
and i think i communicate best now, the less i say
and i can't dance if the band can't play
and the vibe is going nowhere tonight

'cuz somewhere between hollywood and its pretty happiness and an anguish so infinite its anybody's guess
is a place where people are all teachers
and this just one long class
and that ass will get you nowhere tonight

'course that star struck girl
is already someone i miss

~ani d.