Rubyfruit Jungle

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Rosa Lee Parks 1913-2005 The Mother of the Civil Rights Movement


When Rosa Parks commited an act of defiance in 1955 by refusing to give up her seat to a white man she sparked the Civil Rights Movement. She was a 42 year old seamstress from Detroit when she changed the course of American history and became the catalyist for racial equality. She was fined $14 dollars and jailed. Her arrest triggered a 381 day boycott of the bus system organized by the then unknown Martin Luther King Jr. 1964 saw the Introduction of the Civil Rights Act which banned racial discrimination in public accomodations. She became a revered figure worldwide. In 1996 Ms. Parks recieved the Presidential Medal of Freedom and in 1999 she recieved the Congressional Gold Medal. She died yesterday in her hometown of Detroit at the age of 92. May we honor her, and may she rest in peace.
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" I am leaving this legacy to all of you... to bring peace, justice, equality, love and a fulfillment of what our lives should be. Without vision, the people will perish, and without courage and inspiration, dreams will die- the dream of freedom and peace."

~Rosa Parks

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Someone said this and I think its brilliant...


I carry joy in much the same way I imagine a soldier carries her gun. It has the power to save my life in detrimental circumstances.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

buller, buller???

i am starting to feel like i am the only one asking certain questions/like how many times/like why do specific people show up out of nowhere like they just materialize/poof/and then their gone and your suppose to be like what......just ok/and continue on...to what/and why is it that some people are alone for their whole lives and others never know what its like to have sunday morning conversations by yourself/is this it/i dont know/i guess im just asking/ like/ why/why would the universe or the higher power whatever that means and whoever that is tease me like this/what is the lesson/and what if there isnt one/what if this is just this.../i am usually so good at just putting myself out there and trusting but u can only do that so many times till your like what the fuck/ I WANT A REWARD.../like a two year old/and when the theatre comes into play/no/thats not my question/and the cyclical patterns/dangle a little string like a cat/no anomosity/it was lovely/i just want more.... of you... anyone anyone....
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how many times undone can one person be when their careening through the facade of their favorite fantasy u just close your eyes slowly like your waiting for a kiss and hope some lowly little power will pull u out of this. ani d

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

knuckle down...

That's just my cowgirl alter ego riding on her bar room bull
dripping with the sweat of irony as the cowboys whoop and drool
shooting glances at the mirror to see if her scar is showing
she is truly going nowhere tonight

lecherous old lady wanna-be
much too young and shy
flailing her whole life
just thinking she can teach herself to fly
vehement romantic frantic
for forever right now
but forever's going nowhere tonight

sick of goading her self loathing
she thinks, i think i'd better leave
'course whiskey makes me smarter and i'm happy as can be
but please excuse me darlin
its not you
its me

and there's a dusty old dust storm on mars, they say
so tonight you cant see it too clear
still i stood in line to look through their telescope
looked like a distant ship light
as seen from a foggy pier
and i know that i was warned
still it was not what i hoped

i think i'm done gunnin to get closer
to some imagined bliss
i'm gonna knuckle down
just be ok with this

i swear some stuff you just see better from further away
and i think i communicate best now, the less i say
and i can't dance if the band can't play
and the vibe is going nowhere tonight

'cuz somewhere between hollywood and its pretty happiness and an anguish so infinite its anybody's guess
is a place where people are all teachers
and this just one long class
and that ass will get you nowhere tonight

'course that star struck girl
is already someone i miss

~ani d.

Monday, October 10, 2005


this is my offering/trying to work hard at preservation of my own private morality/ ohgod/ its like a passion play i can tell already/i hope it takes years of rehearsal and opens with a BANG/let me have this/teeth knocking/lips smacking at your surprise/life brings me great joy now that was a hell of an open her of conversation/this desire returns of settling inside/ a tiny little nano something looking up and out through your eyes/shit/check yourself



D.E.S.I.R.E

Friday, October 07, 2005




i was running down the stairs/a lead booted animal with that familiar desperation to find you/i ran past those i love patting them on the back as i went like some kind of relay race/i found you outside and grabbed your hands and noticed your nails/they were just like mine soft and fragile like a babies/calcium deficiency i said, thats why we dont work, calcium deficiency.