Masquerade

On Saturday night I went to a masquerade party. I have always had all these romantic ideals around masquerade parties, I think they come from a combination of much ado about nothing and the phantom of the opera. This wasn't the greatest party that I have ever been to but it was the greatest in that it is so refreshing to be with a group of people who can celebrate their selves and each other in such an open way. My costume was rather lacking as it always is( I am really going to work on it for next time)but I did dress really femme so I guess I was gender bending in a little way and my friend did do really great makeup and I was toting around dollar store handcuffs and a pink water pistol. I love the mystery and the aura that surrounds a group of strangers that are dressed up. Because there is so much freedom. I was sort of beginning to think that I was inept at attending social gatherings as most of the time I find the energy to be clotted with a bunch of people that would rather be anywhere but in their own beings, gay or straight. Anyways, all this to say it was a interesting evening had by all.
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THANK YOU NANCY!!!!!
for reading my blog and for your comment. its nice to feel that there are other people out there who have had the same expierence. it was so great to see you too and thanks for the ride home. i hope to see you soon.

P.S kiss molly for me.

What I Saw

I was riding my bike home from the gym yesterday up Davie thinking about the little $450 kitties i just swooned over in the fish store on my way to get a booster juice when I made eye contact with someone sitting on the street. It took me a minute to register who it was but then she called out my name. I got off my bike and walked over to her. She said, carol I'm on the street I need $20 and I think I said something stupid like oh what's going on? When it couldn't have been clearer what was going on it was so clear in fact I felt like someone punched me in the stomach and screamed LOOK AT ALL YOU HAVE. She said look at me I wouldn't ask if I didn't need it. I looked at her and she was all marked and busted up I didn't have $20 but I gave her what I did have which was $10 not enough I know to buy what she needs. She took it and told me she loved me. She asked me if I had seen ____ lately I said no and something else stupid like how long have you been on the street. I told her I lived just up the street and she asked if she could come over. I lied in her face and said um no sorry I am having someone over for lunch. I said take care and rode away. And then I thought who am I to say no to her. She was in the cool group in high school the so called bad crowd I was in that crowd too for like a week. Who am I to say no she can't come over and have a shower I panicked I guess. I should have tried to help her and I also shouldn't have given her money and not because I REALLY don't have it but because she will just use it for drugs but again WHO am I to say NO she would just have to get it another way and I'm sure this way would be much safer. I could have been her anyone could have been her, just make a few bad choices get stuck on the wrong path. If I see her again I will tell her about the center maybe she's ready to get help. But I don't think it works like that. And isn't it nice that I can blog about this in my nice apartment drinking my booster juice.

Crocodiles

I have great desire to soak you up
drown you inside me
ingest you whole and coddle you


Though I know you for a less demanding god
you invent new categories
poke holes in my carefully built silkscreen


aphasiastic skin

GORDON CAMPBELL STILL HATES YOU

Sorry folks but its true. And I now have to come to terms with the fact that it was partly my fault that the liberals got in again. NO I DID NOT RIG IT, THO I WAS MIGHTY TEMPTED SEVERAL TIMES. But seriously I am pissed off at my vote cause I voted NDP and have come to realize that really they are not much better then the Liberals if you look at it closely. Alfie, you don't read this but you are right. Dad, I am proud of you for voting Green and now realize that I should have done the same if I could take it back I would. But I don't understand how the STV was rejected well I guess I understand that people are uneducated and DUMB soooooo many people declined the ballot because they said it was to hard to understand UH?? Or they took the ballot and just voted no cause they didn't know anything about it as far as I'm concerned if you don't educate yourself about what's going on you have NO RIGHT to complain. This may sound harsh but its the true goods. I was also amazed by the number of people that almost took out the screen thing with their head while casting there vote. WATCH THE SCREEN THING SIR. That became my token one liner. And for those of you who know me you will not be surprised to hear that I was also known as the girl who had to pee all the time because of the volume of coffee I was injesting in order to stay awake for all 15 hours. And everytime I had to go I had to shut down my poll. SHE WILL BE RIGHT BACK SIR SHE IS JUST USING THE FACILITIES. I would hear from my post on the can. Anyways all in all it was good to be part of the democratic process and I couldn't help feeling at least a little bit important and found myself sitting just a little bit taller in my seat.

GORDON CAMPBELL HATES YOU

I really wish I was inspired to make some creative outlasting input here but alas I am afraid my creativity is hooped at this moment. Let us see. I went to my training for the elections yesterday that was quite the event. There's a lot that goes into marking that little x on the ballot you know. I HAD TO TAKE AN OATH!!! Yeah, to solemnly swear that I would complete my job to the best of my ability and basically not fuck with anyone else's vote. There goes my plan to wear my GORDON CAMPBELL HATES YOU pin. Damn... What else did I learn, oh yes that the majority of the public doesn't listen. The training lady(who was very good and well informed) would say can you please read the above and sign below and then someone would say EVERY TIME WE HAD TO DO ANYTHING where do we sign again??? There are folks who work the elections every time they come around both provincial and federal and don't get me wrong I think that's great. But then there's the guy(and you who have ever been in a classroom) will know what I mean; that mutters every answer to EVERY question under his breath I was lucky enough to be sitting next to him so finally I turned to him and said "so your a wise guy, eh?" nah, I didn't really say that but I thought it. I just shot him some of my perfected shut the hell up looks. And then there was this sweet older lady well there were plenty of then I was definitely the youngest by like 300 years. Our guru training lady was calling the workbook thing we were given our bible and this lady pipes up WHAT WE HAVE TO BRING A BIBLE?? It was priceless. I am looking forward to the day all 16 hours of it. AND REMEMBER YOU WILL HAVE 2 BALLOTS THIS TIME one for the candidate and one for the referendum so don't get confused because apparently we are anticipating some confusion but we the well trained poll clerks can assist you with that and make your voting experience a pleasant one.
I wonder if I'm allowed to talk about this on my blog, I don't think they said anything about bloging??? Okay. I'm going to leave you with this and go and study my bible cause there's a quiz. No really there is its true and false.

cause i'm a ship i'm a ship i'm a shiiiiipppp

talking to you i morph into some kind of unearthly creature
my insides turning in on themselves green and slimy
you manage to dance through your days untouched
i wish i had that skill
you dangle a shiny present
i think you are incredible